“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord.” – Psalm 130:5-6 (ESV)
Waiting or patience: Neither of which are my strong-suit. I have a hard time waiting for things I want or desire. I am personally working on being the person that God wants me to be, and yet I feel like a failure most of the time. I see someone older than me and wish I was as deep in my faith as them. I see one of my peers and wish I could love others unconditionally like they do (which I find so hard to do).
Failure, stupidity, and vulnerability are all words that both my friend and I used while at coffee this morning. And as I recount the conversation I had with her, she mentioned that it’s easy to say you trust in God, but sometimes I just want to know and not have to worry. It’s easier said than done to wait on the Lord, to put confidence in his word, and to have hope through that.
What does trusting in God or waiting on God looks like? I had a conversation with a mentor earlier this week about wanting to be confident in my job, in myself, and to have a deeper relationship with Christ; yet all these things take a leap of faith in waiting and trusting in God. I have hope because his word never fails and is constant in my times of need and in my good times. As I navigate what it means to trust in God, I am curious how your soul waits on the Lord?
I love how the NLT version brings a different perspective on this verse:
“I am counting on the Lord; yes, I am counting on him. I have put my hope in his word. I long for the Lord.” – Psalm 130:5-6 (NLT)
I am continually learning and learning some more on what it means to trust and count on the Lord. I think it’s easy to speak those words, but to live it out is harder. I am striving to truly surrender my soul to trust in him, to wait on him, one day at a time.